When he was born, frankly I didn't feel an immediate emotional bonding with him as much as my husband did...he did feel strange from a different world even though I carried him around for close to 10 months...but the love story between me and my son started slowly but steadily....I was really amazed at how well my hubby connected with him...he was the perfect Dad! So I did feel a tinge of insecurity...would I be able to connect the same way with him...?
As the days went by, there was no room for any kind of doubt...I just connected and bonded so well with him...all thanks to him...he is such a good son, even though he was just a newborn he didn't trouble me at all...it was as if he knew all the things happening with me...he would not cry or shriek even if he was hungry...only if we was terribbllllyyy hungry..yes...I must say, I am probably a lucky Mom...or I suppose all babies are like this...since they are all gifts sent from heaven above... :-)
He started sleeping through the night just as he turned 3 months which was another great blessing...when he started looking into my eyes at around the same time, it was just pure poetry...he told me so much with just one glance of his...the joy can't be described with words...
He always shows so much respect to me...he is so well-behaved, so well-mannered...and he is just a baby! As a mother, I do expect him to grow up to be a good son with all the lofty values like honesty, sincerity, patriotism instilled in him...but again, this is the age where parents don't expect from their offspring but I think I will prefer to expect and try to instill all those higher values in him rather than not expect and doing nothing about it...I expect my son to shine in whatever walk of life he chooses for himself...because he is such a cute little angel...
The joy which he expresses with a twinkle in his eyes and with his smile when he sees me....is something which I can't describe but I suppose every mother feels the same way when they see their children...all the tiny, precious things he does like wake up in the morning and wait for me to get up instead of crying, laugh a merry laugh for any silly things I do even though they are not funny ;-), wait for me patiently when I am busy working on something, be uncomfy with his wet diaper (which I forgot to change) but still smile a beautiful smile at me, gaze into my eyes and narrate an entire fairy-tale, enjoy my company like nobody else ever has or can, share the feeling of warmth which only we two can share, tell little secrets with his naughty smile, cling on to me like I am his heavenly angel, make me feel like a queen and the rest like second-class citizens :-D
I was very worried when the wicked flu visited him when he was around 5 mos old but he weathered that storm like a brave warrior...the wavelength that we share is so amazing, it is just like everybody describes...2 bodies 1 soul...when he is with me he is fearless, he is secure, he is joyful, he just knows that I am there for him...I am just a normal Mom but he makes me feel like I am a super being one with all powers...atleast I know that I am blessed with the power to comfort him, make him laugh, make him secure...
He has also worked so many miracles even without us realizing, he made me and his daddy come closer like never before, he taught me to be more patient and enduring, he made me see the joy in the smallest of tiniest of little things, he showed me that joy is hidden even in the most mundane of things, helped me experience the real joy in giving...
He is now growing up to be a sweet little boy...now he does more of his small naughty things like pull my hair, keep tugging at my wedding necklace (which I feel is his way of virtually playing with Daddy), flip and do a caterpillar scoot to move around, imitate me and others, dance in his own style when I dance for him...he has also started babbling...his first word 'Amma' :-) which again is meant to make me feel special...I guess all babies are programmed to make the Mom feel special for all the efforts put forth by her... :-P
But this blog is about my son and he is one special little guy...I hope and pray that the angels continue to bless him with all noteworthy qualities and that he will grow up to be a great man someday! Here's to a mom wishing for her wonderful son!
Thank you son for making me complete...I didn't realize what I was missing until I had you!
Thanks so much Lord!