Vaitarna - in the middle of serene tranquility...

A week long visit to Vaitarna near Mumbai was really relaxing and rejuvenating for me. This is a quaint Sahaja Yoga music academy established in the middle of nowhere far away from the hustle-bustle of Mumbai city, located about 200 kms from the Mumbai airport.

When I stayed there I made a couple of paintings which turned out to be really good, if I may the liberty to say so myself! Also, I practiced a dance routine for the song - Anyatha Sharanam Nasthi which is one of my favorite bhajans for the Chennai seminar which was scheduled at the end of May month. It turns out that my performance was well-received and the only reason I could think of was the dedicated time I could devote to the practice at Vaitarna, which would have been literally impossible back in Chennai.

This music academy was established by Baba Mama around 10 years ago. Baba Mama who is the younger brother of Shri Mataji was a really established Yogi who has made tremendous contributions to Sahaja Yoga growth and establishment.

Currently the academy is not in a very good shape owing to poor maintenance and this really pained me a lot. Hopefully this will be corrected in the near future by the ever-flowing grace of our Mother. I also got to meet really deep and dedicated Yogis who were ardently practicing music at the crack of dawn everyday without a day's lapse. This was also a great inspiration for me. All in all, the Vaitarna is a temple of the fine arts like music, painting and dance which is very essential to establish a Yogi deeply in Sahaja Yoga. The tranquility in Vaitarna makes it that much more easier to find your inner hidden Yogi. :-) Thank you very much Shri Mataji for giving us such a wonderful place to express our creativity.

Where is Science and Technology heading to...?

I was very shocked and aghast to see some news in the last couple of weeks in the paper...I think it is even difficult to imagine how the state of affairs would be in the next couple of decades with people going all amok with technology.

News Item #1: 3-D printing technology is a reality and there is a guy already printing 3-D gun parts and using them!

News Item #2: Technology to control the mind of mice by a human has been successfully tested!

News Item #3: A burger with beef grown under artificial lab conditions was distributed among the public. Only problem with it was it lacked the taste of fat!

Now imagine the resultant version of the above news that would read in the near or far future...

News Item #1: Terrorism at its peak among teenagers - Teenagers printing guns causing havoc in universities

News Item #2: Whose in your mind? - Military use of mind control technology becoming a reality, do we have a Manchurian candidate who will be elected as our next President?

News Item #3: Lab grown beef and chicken patties are all the rage - A BIG question mark on the future of the large cattle and chicken population in various farms

I know that all of the above future news items tend to lean more on the negative side; but in predicting the human race it is always better to err on the side of caution and stick to the behavior that is most expected of them! And this is exactly what will happen if we continue to develop science or any field in a lateral manner without any boundaries. The limits have to be defined inherently and this knowledge will come only if as a human being we are connected to our roots. What better way to connect to our roots that realizing the pure energy within us which has been sleeping for eons. If you want to awaken this energy and connect to your roots, try Sahaja Yoga. This technique, I sincerely believe can only save mankind of destruction from its own hands.

An Ad for a VERY, VERY Special Technique... :-)

The following is an ad for a special technique...I am no Marketing person but I just can't resist publicizing about this since I have tried it and it is real goooooddddddd...believe me and all claims it makes are 100% true...so here goes the script for the print ad...

Are you still stuck at the bottom of the Maslow's hierarchy...?

Are you looking for solutions to your emotional, mental and physical problems...?

Are medications taking a toll on you...? Is all your savings going to the doctors?

Are you unable to sleep at night...? Is peace of mind a distant dream for you...?

Is running the daily grind getting to you...?

Are you still part of rat race and going nowhere in particular...?

Are you tired of your dominating boss, nagging spouse, fussy children, overbearing parents...?

Are you tired of trying to hook yourself into a relationship...? Are you tired of the superficial people you meet out there...?

Are you waiting for that magic moment of your life...?

Are you tired of reading the same old newspaper with the same old news about violent, corruption, scams, riots and hatred?

Do you get worried reading news about a student opening fire in school and expect something like that to happen on your way to work...?

Are you tired of the criminal politicians, corrupt bueraucrats, bribe-hungry law personnel and the friendly neighborhood Milkman who mixes water in the milk...?

Do you want to find solutions to all your nation's problems, but dont know where to start...?

Do you want to take our great nation with an outstanding history back to its heyday?

Do you want to influence all the negative people you encounter in a positive way?

Are you worried about where the planet is headed with all the global warming and other ecological problems?

Do you lose sleep over problems affecting our world like terrorism, financial crisis, arms trade, poverty, racism, military spending, child labor, oil problem and so on...

Do you feel like tearing your hair out when you read the murkier things which gets churned out of wiki leaks?

Do you watch sci-fi movies and get worried about the state of affairs to come to our dear Mother Earth in the near future?

Do you want real solutions to all the above problems...???

There is just one simple solution to all these problems and YES, make sure you hear me right...it is 100% FREE!!!

FREE, FREE, FREE!!!

Yes, that's true...and the solution lies within each one of us waiting to be tapped and awakened through Sahaja Yoga meditation.

Yes, Sahaja Yoga meditation is the one and only solution in today's materialistic, money-hungry world. Sahaja Yoga provides a different perspective about all our current day problems and gives us unique and simple solutions which really work!

So what are you waiting for...there are many problems to be solved in the world today. So waste no more time and get on with Sahaja Yoga and let's make our world a better place, by solving one problem at a time.

Thank God for Sahaja Yoga!!!

Inspired by København

Writing after a long gap...but I was inspired to write again thanks to my short visit to Copenhagen, Denmark - supposedly #9 in the list of Top 10 cities to live in the world as of now.

This was my first visit to a European country and I must say it was remarkably different from my previous US experience. For one, I found that the people here lead a very, very, very disciplined life. Also majority of the people here are very, very tall...! The other main aspect was that people here are very friendly and social as well which was very refreshing to see. I also happened to visit a rural area of Denmark, where they have a concept of community living where even today several families live together in one big place and support themselves by contributing all of their income earned to the community. These families also religiously practice organic farming and their belief in being 'environmentally-wise' is the common thread that binds them together. Very inspiring indeed.

Majority of the people here are very active and I could see a lot of people biking on the streets even though the outside temperature was hovering around 3 and 5 degree Celsius. I got to know that most people prefer to bike because:
1. The cost of buying a car is expensive and
2. People are environment conscious.

Also I didn't notice as many elevators in different apartment complexes and people mostly use the stairs. So I think these reasons could partly explain why it was difficult for me to find even one obese person out of at least 20-30 people! Also most of the people here hit the gym on a regular basis.

Also, as already mentioned almost all people here are really eco-friendly and that reflects in all of their everyday routine. I was really amazed to see how a whole nation can be so sensible and disciplined about their lifestyle habits including diet and exercise. And don't get me wrong, just because they are concerned about our environment doesn't mean they are technologically behind. No Sir! They have adopted modern technology in most of the areas but still stick to some of the older technologies in some areas like the heating systems in their apartments which seemed to be a bit archaic. It seemed like they still want to stick with some of it just for the sake of good ol' memories or maybe just because it is a more greener option!

One of the reasons that I felt personally why the people of Denmark are so conscious of all their habits is probably because each and everyone one of them realize that they have one nation which is a gift for them and they can't at any cost afford to 'pollute' it with human 'footprints'. I just wish people of all countries were as smart as the people of Denmark and learn to treasure their nations and not waste away the precious resources of their country and be more environment friendly. My sincere Hats-Off to the the Danish!

Now, time for me to go get my gym membership...no more delay on this one :-)

Suraj Chand Sitare lyrics...

Lyrics of another one of my favorite Sahaj bhajan...


Suraj Chand Sitare sab teri hi srushti hai Ma - 2

Teri rachna har maanav ko Sahaji bana do Adi Maa - 1

Suraj Chand Sitare sab teri hi srushti hai Ma - 1

Teri hi srushti hai Ma - 2


Kaliyuga ki maya moha se raksha hamari karna Ma - 2

Binati tumse hai Ma hamari charno mein apni rakhna - 1

Charno mein apni rakhna - 2


Agar bhatak jaaye jo kabhi bhi raaha dikha na humko Ma - 2

Humme bhar do prem ki shakthi gehra hamaarey dil mein Ma - 1

Gehra hamarey dil mein Ma - 2


Aashirvaad karo hum sabko Sahaja Yog badaye Ma - 2

Saari duniya sahaji bankar aaye tumhari sharan mein Ma - 1

Aaye tumhari sharan mein Ma - 1


Suraj Chand Sitare sab teri hi srushti hai Ma - 1

Teri rachna har maanav ko Sahaji bana do Adi Maa - 1

Suraj Chand Sitare sab teri hi srushti hai Ma - 1

Teri hi srushti hai Ma - 3

31 years of amnesia...

Yes, this post is about my own amnesia which I have suffered for the past 31 years. This amnesia relates to a very crucial part of my life...about my existence itself!

I can finally say that I found myself, the reason why I am here, why I was created...finally I have overcome my amnesia to see the light of truth. This is not a theory but a real experience which I had a couple of weeks back. The truth was all of a sudden standing in front of me, crystal clear without any doubts, any questions, any second-guesses.

The truth that I discovered was that, I am God's child. Yes, not an earth shattering discovery, but a very basic truth that all of us already know...but it is something which I experienced one fine day. How many of us realize this truth, believe this truth, understand this truth? I did and after this experience, life for me has changed in more ways than one. Now I realize that it is not me doing things but that I am being gently guided by a beautiful divine power. So all my actions are now 'surrendered' and not 'planned'. Now my desires are not many, but just one - 'To be in constant connection with the divine, every living moment of my life'. Now, the purpose of my life, is not achieve one, two and three from my list and become this and that, but to just remain as God's own child forever. Now I know for sure that my prayers are not just empty one-sided conversations but they are being listened to by someone sitting up there.

I can see that life has come a full circle for me at this point in time. In brief, for the first few years of my life, I was very much connected to the divine albeit without my knowledge and was hence a happy child. It was like this for the first 12 years of my life, I think most children are connected between this age range. Then the downfall started, the pangs of teenage years started and along with it came all the ambitions, frustrations, challenges, shortcomings which really took me down. But all this happened mainly because that the memory that I was God's child was completely erased from my being. Hence I went down in a spiral for the next 10 years and once again it was a spiral (a 3 1/2 coil spiral to be precise) which stopped this downward descent. I discovered Sahaja Yoga at 22 which helped me reverse my downward descent. But for me to completely remember who I was, took me another 10 years. But in all these years I was an unwavering seeker, I never gave up because I knew that something was wrong with the way things are, something was missing, something had to be improved upon. I was aware of the shortcoming of human endeavors and how they manage to get messed up at some point or the other all from personal experiences. I was aware that if we try to control our fate, then it would backfire at us at some point in time. So, I received answers to all my questions that day and there was no doubts, no questions, nothing more to be asked in my mind. I successfully overcame my amnesia and sincerely request the divine to let me enjoy this state for the rest of my life on earth!

Nirmal Rachna...

A Hindi poem about my beloved Guru Shri Mataji...

Maa, jab aap apni singhaasan pey viraajey

Ye dharthi ke sakal ansh tab mahek mahek utjaaye

Ganesha ka aagaman sab mein tab hojaaye

Maa, jab aap piroye pyaar key naazuk dhaagey

Ye brahmaand mein uthe shuddh iccha ke angaarey

Brahmaji tab honge jaagey

Maa, jab aap chakhlo apne bhaktho ke haathon se ek nivaala

Is dharthi par chaa jaaye harey rang ki maala

Lakshmi tab hamare jeevan mein padhaarey 

Maa, jab aapke dil mein pyaar aaye kisi jeev pe

Ye vishw ke ghanghor andherey rahenge doori pe

Durga ki shakthi ka ek jhonkha bas jaaye dil mein

Maa, jab app gaaye madhur sa ek swar

Is bhoomi ka har jeev bas jaaye viraat par

Krishna ki leela ho jaaye bhaktho mein tatpar

Maa, jab aap jhaankhen humaare aankhon ki geharaayiyon mein

Sakal jeev ke paap mitjaaye is kiran mein

Phir se Yesu ka punaruthaan ho is bhoomandal mein

Maa, jahaan aap chaley sang sang bahathi hai chaitanya ki lehre

Ye pruthvi ke jeevo ka hojaaye uthaan is shakthi ke sahaarey

Shivji ke tatw se ho poora Yog hamaare

Dhanya ho Maa, dhanya ho Maa, dhanya ho Maa

Jai Shri Mataji!

How my conversation with God changed...

...over the span of a 30 minutes early morning meditation (around 4:00 am to be precise)...it crossed 3 stages...just like that :-)

Stage 1: God, people in Chennai and rest of Tamil Nadu desperately need rain. It is already June and still no sign of any rainfall. The heat is killing. Please God, please help us!

This was the request stage.

Stage 2: God, you already know about what I am requesting. I am not telling you something that you do not know about. You also know how people are suffering due to this heat. I know we mortals are responsible for things like Global warming and we are guilty of being self-centered and all that. But please forgive us for all our mistakes and give us the much needed showers at the earliest (again a request-cum-command of sorts!) and help your suffering children.

This was the realization stage.

Stage 3: God, you know what we need best. You know the precise timing of when you will be sending us the rain. You are the ultimate authority. We are all your children, so I surrender this issue to you and request you to give everybody the patience and strength to bear this terrible heat.

This was the surrender stage...

After that, absolute peace and meditation in silence!

The most miraculous coincidence was that I came across the below story the next day after my above experience...


Mam Baihaqi has stated on the authority of Hadhrat Ali (ra) who stated: "Once, I was present with the Prophet (peace be upon him). At that time, I had fallen so much sick that I prayed to Allah Almighty to grant me death if I am destined to die so that I may get relief from the sickness, otherwise, I may be restored to normal health from the sickness if I have to live for sometime. I, also, prayed for being granted patience if this sickness is a test for me from Allah Almighty." Hearing that, the Prophet beat Ali with his foot and observed: "Oh Ali! repeat what you were saying." Ali (ra) repeated his prayer. Then the Prophet prayed to Allah Almighty: "O Allah! Heal him from the sickness." Ali (ra) stated that he became healthy the same day and the pain never appeared again.


Source: From the book "The Miracles of the Prophet Muhammad" by Shaikh Ahmed Saeed Dehalvi.


This story goes to show that we really do not have to ask God of anything...he knows what we need and will definitely take care of it, given that we are in connection with him..! At the same time it doesn't mean that we shouldn't pray, we should and that is the only way our channel to God will be maintained. But nowadays it seems people are more busy 'predicting' if the monsoon will arrive or not arrive or how much will arrive. So people, I think it is time to put aside the predicting and do some praying instead and witness God's power.

Majestic Silence...

We had been to Munnar (Kerala) a couple of weeks ago and boy, I must say this - Kerala - God's own country! The breathtaking sceneries out there just filled our heart with silent joy. There are no words to express the scintillating beauty of the place, so majestic, so serene, so mystical, so superlatives-transcending. Now I know the real reason behind why people used to escape to hilly / mountainous places for achieving their spirtual enlightenment. It seems like God really took his time in sketching this marvellous place on his drawing board and I bet he must have been in a really glorious mood.

Look hard and maybe you can see a dignified elephant...

There is just no end to the wondrous marvel of God's creation that enraptures you here. Here you can see the beauty of a misty mountain, just tilt your head a bit and you can catch a glimpse of a serenading waterfall, just around the corner you see a forest full of cardomom plantations and you just turn around a little bit more to see endless vast stretches of tea plantations...Wow! Come see the blue in the grass...a very apt statement that applies to Munnar. It is just endless, glorious views of God's creation which can satiate your inner spiritual being and make you feel connected with the greater power. Here you feel the presence of our creator; anyone can become a saint in this place.

Bountiful Tea plantations

When we entered Kerala border we were immediately welcomed with an elephant trio happily trotting away in the wild followed by a couple of really naughty monkeys who had a gala time jumping on our van. We also stayed at a resort which was just amazing in terms of hospitality and delicious food. I believe the owners of the resort were so besotted by Munnar when they first visited here that they decided to make it their home. I can believe that story without any iota of doubt. We also saw a field right in the middle of the valley with boys playing cricket...that's right...amidst all the hills. They were one lucky bunch of boys!

A beautiful waterfall amidst the lush green hills


When I admire the wonders of a sunset or the beauty of the moon, my soul expands in the worship of the creator.  ~ Mahatma Gandhi

View from our resort room

We had been there for just two 'very short' days and we had to get back. My heart was very heavy the day we were starting back from Munnar and I hoped and prayed that we would come back soon albeit with the intention of staying longer.

Matupetty Dam - A breathtaking view

All photos courtesy my dear husband.

My first best friend...

I recently watched the animated movie 'Bolt' and was inspired to write this...about my first best friend.

I first met her when I was in my 4th grade and she was just over a month old. I christened her 'Ruby' (I think my Mom suggested to me that time, since the previous 2 dogs they owned were called Rover and Rosy). She had big round brown eyes, a shiny nose, perky ears, light brown colored hair covered her petite body and she had a very inviting, curled up tail. Yes, she was my first best friend for ever...my pet pom Ruby.

She was all I used to think about at that time. I used to feed her, bathe her, play with her, take her for walks and do a whole lot of fun stuff with her. She was to be my best friend for years to come until I completed my engineering...yes, she was a part of my life for 14 long years. I am using this space to reminisce about a few good moments we had together...

I celebrated her 'birthday' for the first 2 years after she came into my life with all festivities, cake, chocolates, dog biscuits, some 'privileged' guests and all the shebang. The cake and chocolates were anyways mostly meant for me since she didn't seem to be too interested in it...!!! Although the dog biscuits were her main cup of tea.

I used to take her for long walks in the evening and she used to sometimes prance off and go and eat some freshly laid cowdung off the road. Yes, ewwww!!!! That was her idea of dessert I suppose...

Many of the evenings during my summer holidays were spent removing ticks from her body and burning them since my Mom used to tell me that if there were not burnt they would come back 'alive' again. I am not sure if that's really true...

She used to have this uncanny ability to greet me whenever I got back home from school by wagging her tail and yelping at the top of her voice. Seeing her enthusiasm would make me forget all the day's fatigue and make me active once again.

When I used to feel sad and cry for some reason or the other she would be there at my side silently without making any sound. She would also sometimes lick the tears off my face. It may seem gross to a third person but at that moment I knew that I had my best friend right beside me.

This will be a very loooonnnnggg post if I list out all the mischief's we would be upto all the time especially during the summer holidays...she was always my official 'partner in crime' :-)

During winter, I would dress her up in a sweater and take her for walks...which would make her THE center of attention on the road...coming to think of it, she was just like my child. I used to stay up most of the night when she used to fall sick just to make sure that she was doing fine. I used to also save up some of my pocket money to buy her favorite dog biscuits.

Once, I came very close to losing her when a few street dogs mercilessly bit her in the middle of the night. I had my first semester engineering exams coming up in a couple of weeks and this happened. I stayed up a few nights nursing her and had to apply medicines on her thrice a day. Phew...by God's grace, she came back to me. :-) but after that incident her health was not as stable as before...

She came along with me all along and she passed away the day I left for the US, the first time. My parents didn't inform me about it until after a couple of days. But it was one lonely moment for me. Anyways, if you have kids, please let them have a pet since they will learn to be more responsible, more caring, will share more and overall will become sensitive and kind humans. What with the current generation of kids not getting to mingle and play with other kids, having a pet can make all the difference in their lives...

My sister Dolly...

This post is about a person whom I loved as a child and who was very special; my elder sister Usha whom we lovingly called 'Dolly' which actually later became 'Daally' in daily usage. Just like her name, she was like the first gentle rays of the morning sun. Unfortunately, she passed away in 1988 in a mishap when I was in my 3rd grade. To this day, I still regret that I didn't get to spend as much time with her as I should have. These are the memories of a 7 year old...

I was very young to remember everything about her but there a few things about her which are still fresh in my mind to this day. She was very good at writing absolutely beautiful and unique doodles of exquisite women faces. I used to admire them so much and also had saved some of them for quite a number of years. I tried mimicking her sketches myself but couldn't get it as good as her. The features of the women in her sketches would be Oh-so-delicate, just like my sister. She was one of the softest and gentlest person you could find. Also given the fact that she was almost 21 years older to me (yes, I know, I know!) she was more like a second Mother to me. I know of her more as a mother than a sister since I was so young. Maybe if she was around now I could have had a heart-to-heart sister chat with her and could have understood better of who she was as a person and what her deepest desires were.

She used to be just a little over 5 feet but she had loooong, thick, jet black hair which went all the way and below her waist. She was a very simple lady with very simple desires. While leaving for office she used to dress in a very simple manner but still she managed to look very pretty and elegant. I remember she used to always wear a violet colored, single stranded crystal beads necklace which I used to love. I used to think that the necklace represented my sister in many ways, as it was simple and short but at the same time unique, elegant and gently radiant just like my sister's personality.

She used to help me with my homework everyday evening and teach me Maths. Her handwriting was round and beautiful just like pearls. I remember spending hours together just admiring her handwriting. The same cannot be said about my handwriting though... :-) I also remember that I had a batty problem at school in LKG. I somehow couldn't bring myself to write the small letter 'f', weird isn't it! My teacher was very impatient with me since I used to always make a mistake. But Dolly corrected my mistake in a jiffy by patiently teaching me the right technique. I used to feel that with her as my teacher I could master anything very easily.

Back then itself she had done a course in COBOL programming and she used to tell me that she was good at it. She used to really enjoy her computer classes. I used to peek into her notes, just to admire her handwriting though. My Mother also used to tell me that she was very good at her studies but she was painfully shy. She had very few friends and one Kalpana was her best friend since childhood with whom she shared all her secrets. She also loved to eat raw rice while it was being cleaned. My mother used to berate her saying that it would rain during her wedding if she ate too much of raw rice and true to her words it did rain cats and dogs on her wedding night.

This brings me to her wedding day. I was literally everywhere. I was so excited with the happenings. The main episode that I remember was her reception during which my sis was looking soooooo gorgeous, just like the women in her doodles. She was so beautiful that evening that I just couldn't keep my eyes off her. That is the day I realized that my sister was a beautiful person not only on the inside but on the outside as well! I also cried so much that night after she left. I was mainly worried about who would help me with my homework going forward!!! I also remember that I cried even more on the day she left us which was just 3 months after her wedding but that is something I do not want to remember.

When I come to think of it today, I am literally opposite to her in nature as well as physical appearance. She was short while I am quite tall, she had a perfectly round face while I have an oval face, she had thick long hair while I have messy curly hair, she had big beautiful eyes while I have medium eyes, she was gentle as a lamb while I was quite tomboyish, and we had so many years separating us hmmm....but nevertheless the face remains that we were sisters :-)

Daally, these are some tattered memories I have of you. I just wish I got to know more of you but nevertheless I am happy that I did know a warm and sweet person like you atleast to some extent.

Divine plans and actions - Part 2

This post is continuation of my previous post of the same title...

As a child and even to this day, I respect deities from all religions. As I was schooled in a Christian institution, I was used to praying to Lord Jesus Christ in the church of our school compound. Also, for a few years I used to celebrate Christmas at home with a self-made Christmas tree, Crib, Star and the works. I used to always listen to the evening prayers which echoed from the mosque near my house. They used to supply me with my daily dose of the divine. As a kid when I used to visit the temple, I used to always ask for something but later I used to go to the temple and just sit in meditation. I came to realize that God is everywhere and he knows what I want. I don't have to explicitly tell him anything, so my temple time was just my quiet time with God.

I also used to 'dislike' human beings as a kid since I always felt that we are capable of only giving love on a conditional basis. I used to love animals for the selfless love that they showered on us without expecting anything in return. In that sense, I always felt that animals were spiritually superior to us. But as my world expanded, I did meet a few people who changed this perspective of mine for good. I have also come to realize that if you are a spiritually mature person you can give much more love to the world and change it in your own small but significant way.

In my 7th grade, I had a dream of Shirdi Sai Baba who came and protected me from some horrible goon. He then told me that I will one day find my true calling which I eventually did.

There was magic in the divine power which I used to always feel. On Ganesh Chathurthi, my joy used to know no bounds. I used to make all efforts to decorate my house to welcome home our little Ganesha moorthi (statue). Now after my spiritual realization, I realize the important role that Shri Ganesha plays in our spiritual upliftment. Also I used to adore him since he was an elephant-headed God. I used to just love animals. I used to always have one recurrent dream since my LKG days and that was to construct a massive hospital for animals where they could get free treatment. This was the dream I had day in and day out and animals both tame and wild used to visit my hospital for their treatment. I religiously watched Maneka Gandhi's 'Heads and Tales' show and was a vegetarian for almost 9 years! I sure hope to get my animal charity stuff rolling sometime in the near future but that I will keep reserved for another post.

I was very artistically expressive, whenever time permitted that is. I used to sketch drawings of the different deities, compose poems about Nature and the purpose of our life on Earth. I used to be quite a shy child but I was a God-fearing individual. I used to always be implicitly aware of the dharmas that keep us grounded as human beings and used to never cross my limits. But I think once I got into college and got into the rigmarole of studying, studying and more studying somewhere this divine connection got weakened a bit and I lost track of my spiritual quest. But as they say, in our darkest hour do we find the greatest light, I think I again got back on track of my spiritual quest through Sahaja Yoga and the rest as they say is history!!!

Divine plans and actions - Part 1...

My life 'changed' from all perspectives the day I started to meditate. It is now 9 years since I started my spiritual journey...but it is only now that I am beginning to understand so many things at a somewhat deeper spiritual level. I guess each one of us learns and graduates at their own pace.

When I reflect back, February 2003 was the day I got my spiritual realization. The day I got my realization is still etched very clearly in my mind and I still cherish Feb 9th as a very important date. But, as I am growing in my spiritual ascent, I realize now that this day was just one of the many events which occurred in my life which served as 'spiritual markers' to the beginning of my spiritual life. I always knew that I was a special child and now I have to come to fully realize the reason behind it. My Mother Shri Mataji was there even back then to guide me gently through my life.

I would like to use this post to reminisce some of those events which held significance from a spiritual perspective. As a kid, I used to always go to the terrace of my house and look at the moon and stars and ask them, what is my purpose. This is something which I did on a regular basis, since back then something inside me told me that life is not very shallow and holds much more deeper meaning than what I was seeing with my open eyes. I used to believe that somebody up there was listening to my questions and that I would one day get the answers to my question.

As I have mentioned in one of my previous posts Punyakoti, I was in 3rd standard but the poem touched me so deeply that it is difficult to describe in words. It is the first time I realized that I was such a sensitive person. When I watch movies even to this day I always like to watch ones which have some moral or higher meaning attached to them. As a child, Moral Science class used to be my favorite!

This post seems to be growing in length, hence let me split it into 2 parts to make reading comfy...

A Salute to my Mother-

in-law (this part is inconsequential anyways :-)). Yes, I would like to dedicate this post to my Mom-in-law (whom I lovingly call Maami) because she is one helluva woman! I guess this is not something very common for a daughter-in-law to do but I think anybody in my place would have done the same. She is one unique woman and no, she is not very highly educated nor is she a hi-flying city-dweller.

She is a simple woman from one of the remotest village in Tamil Nadu but her qualities would put even a city lady to shame. I must say, she is the epitome of the Indian Woman. It is women like her who still weave love into India's fabric to this day. She has nerves of steel - rugged on the outside and soft as butter on the inside. She is not the one to be worried about her looks but she worries all the time about how well-groomed her children look. She makes sure that all the people in her family have had a satisfied meal before she even touches a morsel of food herself. She sacrifices like it is nobody's business. I am not sure if my words would do enough justice to her shining character but I am making an attempt.

From what I know of her, I must say she is one gutsy woman. She is totally and unconditionally selfless when it comes to herself but when it comes to her children she is the most selfish person, just like a Mother hen who protects her chickens... :-) She would smile and bear anything for their happiness. She would sleep on the bare floor but she would make sure that her children are sleeping on a silk-cushioned mattress. The most highest qualities of a Mother, she possesses.

Today's woman spends more time on her outer beauty but forget to nurture their inner qualities but we have to remember that outer beauty will wilt away very soon, it is our unique qualities as women which will shine through over time. I know this is beginning to sound like one of those forwards where all the ideal qualities of a woman are described, but I know of no other way of describing her and I am not even sure where I should start describing her.

She remembers all the little dialogues, all the little incidents, all the glances of her children and her relatives from years ago and relates them like it happened just a couple of hours ago. She does exaggerate a bit when it comes to her children but which Mother doesn't!

She has a steely resolve and when she wants to get something done nothing can stop her from it. You know life is not very easy in the villages and she isn't deterred by anything, be it the blistering Tamil Nadu summer afternoons, the highly musical mosquitoes, the nasty bug, the missing helping-hand, her painful backache or the occasional snake in the bush. The task has to get done and that's it and waking up at 4 am in the morning is just another normal daily routine for her.

She cares for her cows and goats like they were born of her and they respond to her in the same way. Rain or blazing Sun she makes sure that they are well-fed and well-watered. She can understand their calls better than anyone else and she nurtures them most with her love.

Love, is the main ingredient which makes her world go around and that is the only language she knows well. Love for her children, her relatives, her animals, her plants, her neighbors everybody who comes in contact with her. She believes in just giving, giving and more giving. She just keeps giving like the Goddess Lakshmi, there is just no end to her giving. I am not sure of what I can ever give her because I have no time to pause and think since I am so busy just taking from her, so much love she has to offer everyone! She hides her tears from her children so that they do not feel her pain and ends up hiding it from herself too...! She just loves unconditionally and doesn't expect back anything in return.

Her qualities have permeated into her children too and I am lucky to be married to one of her children. So, I have come to realize that the best way to make your children loving is to be loving yourself as children learn by imitation and the Mother is the first person they mimic. But being loving doesn't just come naturally to everyone. But if there is one woman like her in every home, there is no doubt that India would retain its long lost glory and be the shining beacon of hope and love to the whole world again.

All I want to say is that I am Oh-so-lucky to be her DIL atleast and if I can even manage to be 10% of what she is during my lifetime then my birth as a woman would be truly fulfilled. A most respectful salute to Mother India too who produces women of such awesome character. Also hope more DILs have such beautiful things to say about their MILs. Amen!

Why we shout in anger???

Came across this gem of an article on Facebook :-)

A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled and asked.

'Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?'

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout.'

'But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.' asked the saint

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.
Finally the saint explained, .

'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'

The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'

He looked at his disciples and said.

'So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will no longer be able to hear each other.'

The hymn prophet Muhammad's uncle wrote in praise of Lord Shiva...

Just came across this one...talks about India's greatness. Let us Indians realize this and be deeply indebted to Mother India and not abuse her. We are just so lucky to be born here and probably it is a result of our previous punyas...

Prophet Muhammad's uncle Umar-bin-e-Hassham (also known as Abu Hakam or Abu Jahl) was a renowned poet whose famous Arabic poem in praise of Lord Shiva, included in Sair-ul-Okul and cited on a column in the (fire worship pavilion in the rear garden of the) Lakshmi Narayan Temple in New Delhi, runs as under:

Kafavomal fikra min ulumin Tab asayru
Kaluwan amataul Hawa was Tajakhru - 1
We Tajakhayroba udan Kalalwade-e liboawa
Walukayanay jatally, hay Yauma Tab asayru - 2
Wa Abalolha ajabu armeeman MAHADEVA
Manojail ilamuddin minhum wa sayattaru - 3
Wa Sahabi Kay-yam feema-Kamil MINDAY Yauman
Wa Yakulum no latabahan foeennak Tawjjaru - 4
Massayaray akhalakan hasanan Kullahum
Najumum aja- at Summa gabul HINDU - 5

The man who may spend his life in sin and irreligion or waste it in lechery and wrath - 1
If at least he relent and return to righteousness can he be saved? - 2
If but once he worship Mahadeva with a pure heart, he will attain the ultimate in spirituality - 3
Oh Lord (Shiva) exchange my entire life for but a day's sojourn in India where one attains salvation - 4
But one pilgrimage there secures for one all merit and company of the truly great - 5

Source: Sair-ul-Okul, P. 235

Parameshwari Bhagawati Nirmala...

Lyrics of another of my favorite Sahaja bhajan...

Parameshwari Bhagawati Nirmala...(2)

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...(2)

Hai upkaar teraa milaa ye basera...(2)

Huyaa hai jeevan mein phir naya savera...

Parameshwari...Bhagawati...Nirmala...

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...

Nahin besahara nahin deen ab hum.... (2)

Hum hii shakti roopa toh karunaa bhi hai hum...

Ye dhi hai maanavta aanchal mein humarey...

Parameshwari Bhagawati Nirmala...(2)

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...(2)

Ye gulshan humara, basera ye pyaara... (2)

Yahin se shuru nava jeevan hamara...

Vishwa Nirmala prem aashram ye nyaara...

Parameshwari Bhagawati Nirmala...(2)

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...(2)

Jukhe sheesh tere charan mein Ma Nirmal... (2)

Tumhe dekh hum ko tumhi ka ho pratipal...

Chaley us nagar par jahan naam tera...

Parameshwari Bhagawati Nirmala...(2)

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...(2)

Parameshwari...Bhagawati...Nirmala...

Hame teri mamta ka aashray mila...

He is growing up...

This is a short post inspired by my three year old son's 'all-grown-up' words...

Last week a Mommy squirrel left two of her baby squirrels in our attic and for some reason never returned...

The baby squirrels kept crying for food and I found that really tiny baby squirrels need to be given only milk (a complicated mixture of 4 - 5 different kinds of milk powder and other stuff) and nothing else. :-( So they finally passed away yesterday.

When I told my son that the baby squirrels have died and so the Mommy squirrel and me are sad, his response left me in tears. He said, 'Mommy, I will not die and leave you'. I was totally taken aback, but after composing myself, I told him that nothing will ever happen to him since he is under the perfect protection of the Divine to which he said, 'The squirrel baby didn't pray to the Divine that is why they died'. I told him that the squirrel babies were too little to pray to God but somehow they were destined to go back to God. He said that he would always do 'shaami' so that he can be with Mommy :-)

I am not sure if all children have this level of maturity at three years of age. Probably the children of this generation are very much grown-up in comparison to their physical age. Whatever it is, his responses left me speechless and looking for a kerchief...

Found my Pillar of strength...

during my flight fraught with peril...yes, this is another post about my son :-)

I was reminded yesterday about our f(p)light from US to India in 2010 and decided to dedicate this post to that episode. It was quite an episode given the fact that everything which could even remotely go wrong went wrong during that journey. A list of our experience is listed below..phee...reading this I think you will feel happy that all your journeys in life until now have been sooooo, heavenly and hope it will always be so too!

TWWW (Things Which Went Wrong) # 1 - We had excess weight in almost all of our baggage's hence we had to pay a hefty fine...

TWWW # 2 - We missed our first connecting flight thanks to the delay caused in paying the fine amount. Luckily we didn't miss the International flight. Thank God!

TWWW # 3 - A brand new expensive thermos flask we had bought, slipped and broke into a million pieces at the airport waiting gate!

TWWW # 4 - The amount of hand baggage we were carrying was ....well indescribable!!!

TWWW # 5 - We didn't miss the first International flight but missed the second one due to TWWW # 1 :-( (we do end up paying for our past karmas one time or the other - that's a given!!!)

TWWW # 6 - Thanks to a well-meaning air hostess who took pity on our excess-hand-baggage situation, we inadvertently lost a cabin baggage which had all our important documents like college degree certificates, laptops, jewelry :-| (realized that sometimes good intentions don't always translate to good results!)

TWWW # 7 - Above all we had hardly slept for three whole days before our journey what with all the packing and cleaning of our rental apartment!

The only icing on this melting cake was that we didn't get stranded in Frankfurt airport else we would have been caught up in the Volcanic Ash incident and couldn't have reached India for atleast a week!!!

You must be wondering by now how this post is related to my son. Given the above facts you can imagine the state my husband and I must have been in. But oblivious to all the things happening around him my son was the 'coolest' guy one could ever find. He was so well-behaved, so cute, so 'non-troubling' that just looking at him made us realize that it is possible to maintain our cool even in the most trying of situations. He slept when he had to, he ate when he had to, he was so laid-back and was the most well-behaved gentleman around given the fact that he was just two days short of turning One year :-) I think he knew inherently that Mommy and Daddy were facing some sort of crisis and that he shouldn't add to their misery, he somehow just knew it! He was really a reflection of the divine power and somehow we looked up to him to handle the situation and also managed to come out of this sticky situation and landed safely in India and even found our lost baggage intact, albeit a couple of weeks later!

All's well that ends well. Thank you God for giving us your reflection in innocent but all-knowing children!

My encounter with Mr. Hanumana...

This was an incident which occurred yesterday when I took my son to the small zoo here at Guindy. As my son was hungry, I gave him a small bun and asked him to eat it. He refused and gave it back to me and I kept it back within the bag along with the rest of the bun packet.

But unknowing to us there was a Mr. Hanumana (read monkey) watching us closely from a distance! As soon as I kept the bun packet back into the bag the monkey approached us and snatched the bag from my hand like it belonged to him or her (I am not sure!). My son burst into tears and wanted his bun back right then...anyways!

This is what monkeys generally do when we innocently tempt them with goodies in our hand. But what made me write this post was the brazen 'fearlessness' which I noticed in the eyes of the monkey. It was just so raw...I was trying to shoo it away and it didn't seem to bother about anything. Looking at its eyes which were so fear-free and direct made me retreat. This is when I thought fearlessness...what an amazing quality to have and your eyes are the best window to express them. Maybe back then, while the Britishers ruled us, I think it is this kind of fearlessness that they saw in our freedom fighters eyes which made them squinch and leave. The fearlessness in somebody's eyes can instill the feeling of fear in somebody else...can we manage to be fearless in all circumstances or only in the pursuit of things that we must have, does fearlessness come from being ignorant or from the belief that we can face anything that may come up...hmm...now I know why Lord Hanuman is associated with fearlessness...Jai Shri Ram bakth Hanuman!